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03 May 2009 @ 03:48 pm
Dont bitch me out about this  
But to anyone who is truly pro anorexia, and not just on here because they are lonely in their ED'S, please read this.

First off, let me say what I'm sure you have heard a million times but are to "determined" to actually accept; having anorexia will not make you happy. You will be just as unhappy as a bulimic or a binge eater or anyone else who has used food as a way to cope with the shit that has happened to them. Im not going to use flowery language to describe this, because eating disorders are ugly and horrible to endure. For the few girls on here saying "oh but I just want to lose weight SO BAD, I JUST WANT TO BE SKINNY" I'm sorry, but get the fuck over yourself. If you are not already too sick to fight, FUCKING FIGHT! Don't just lie down and let your 'disordered thoughts' send you to the slaughter house. I am pretty sure the vast majority of people on here are not anorexic, but do suffer from some sort of eating disorder, and there is this very palpable vibe that anorexia is the 'coveted disease'. It suck just as much as any DISEASE. It is horrible and scary and lonely AND YOU WILL NEVER BE HAPPY WITH YOURSELF. I FELT JUST AS BAD ABOUT MYSELF AT 5'9 100 LBS AS I DID AT 130. I just needed to say this, as someone who has now been struggling for just over a year with a diagnosed anorexia, IT IS HELL, HELL, HELL. DO NOT talk yourself into some sugary fantasy about beautiful bones and feeling delicate and beautiful. It will never ever ever ever happen. Not because you wont be a bag of  "lovely, beautiful, graceful, PERFECT", bones. You will be, but you wont see it. You will see the same selfish, ugly, loud, evil, girl staring back in the mirror no matter how many pounds you starve away, and even if you recognize you are thin, you will come to the should-be obvious conclusion that, surprise, it doesn't change ANYTHING. So if you think there is a chance you dont really have an ED and are just on here because you think it sounds like a good way to fit into those true religions and get some attention, pull your head out of the clouds and FIGHT. You are worth it, but after the meat grinder experience of battling an eating disorder, that will be harder to recognize. And if you think you wont want to fight, you're wrong. You will, when you feel your body start to crumble and decay, you will wish you could be the strong, healthy, beautiful person you decided to destroy. But by the time you actually want to fight for your life (because your great little eating disorder will fucking KILL YOU) you won't be able to see two feet in front of you, you won't be able to make the decision to recover, not easily, not with out unimaginable pain. You will waste years of your life for no reason. Please, if you can, turn back now. I am so sick of girls just rolling over and giving into negative thoughts and allowing them to metastasize into anorexia and bulimia and binge eating disorder and every-other manner of hell we practice upon ourselves. It is not worth it. I promise.
 
 
 
Catmomwildflower399 on May 3rd, 2009 11:06 pm (UTC)
Amen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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lameamy on May 3rd, 2009 11:11 pm (UTC)
I know, im not saying bulimia or any other disorder is any less hellish. I'm saying anorexia is not any better then any other disorder. I know everyone want to be thin, but when girls come on here saying , "OMG I JUST WANT TO BE LIKE NICOLE RICHIE, OMG HOW DID MY BFF GET SO THIN"..ect etc etc, it seriously makes me scream.
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(no subject) - lameamy on May 3rd, 2009 11:21 pm (UTC) (Expand)
ailmentaileb on May 3rd, 2009 11:10 pm (UTC)
thank-you!!!!!!!!!

some of those newbie posts had me seeing green!


"i just want to lose weight but I don't want to binge or be anorexic" wtf

"i want to lose 10 pounds in 6 days"






lameamy on May 3rd, 2009 11:13 pm (UTC)
seriously, I wish that they could actually get it into there heads that NO ONE on here is happy. it's so obvious and some how no one catches on. is anyone on here like "YAY I WEIGH 87 LBS, IM SO SO HAPPY, IM SO GLAD I HAVE RUINED MY LIFE TO BE THIN, ED ROCKS!!!" UM, NOPE. But still, everyone seems to think THEY will be happy WHEN THEY ARE THIN. bullllllshitttttt.
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lameamy on May 3rd, 2009 11:15 pm (UTC)
Thank YOU!
fat_weak on May 3rd, 2009 11:29 pm (UTC)
Awh hun i completely agree. I actually posted something a little like this a while back. I HATE the way this website makes anorexia look so blissful. Im diagnosed bulimic and it really pisses me off because i constantly feel like my ED isnt good enough around here, sometimes ive had like 1 b/p in a day which i feel is good (as apposed to 5/6) and then people are so horrible and it makes me feel like shit.
I hate the whole 'lets be anorexic so we can be pretty at prom' attitude. It makes me want to be sick (lol from the bulimic). Wow that joke was inappropriate. Sorry.

love x
obscuredreamzobscuredreamz on May 3rd, 2009 11:38 pm (UTC)
Thank you for this post.
Laurathin_destiny on May 3rd, 2009 11:51 pm (UTC)
Yep totally agree. The more weight you lose, the worse you feel. Why would you want a disease?
eraseme83eraseme83 on May 4th, 2009 02:04 pm (UTC)
Preach it, Sistah! Seriously, I think it is so sad that people would WANT this disease. Or wanting to "catch" anorexia because they want attention or because they want to attract a guy. Do they really think they'll be pretty, thin and happy? I can tell you, I never feel that way. And my guy? I drive him crazy.. I make him sad.. because he does not understand why I do what I do to myself. He can't even talk about it because he feels worthless. As does everyone else around me. And as much as I would love to stop for them.. it's just too hard. To be honest, I think I was almost happier when I was an overweight kid. Sure, I got teased a bit, but I think if I would have just let myself grow out of it and didn't go down this road... god, my life would be so much better. I wouldn't have lost my gallbladder. I wouldn't have blood sugar problems. I wouldn't have the constant body and bone aches... the constant feeling that I'm going to pass out. Seriously, who would want that? Do these people not read through our posts and see what's happening to us?
Rachellettuce_1992 on May 4th, 2009 03:19 pm (UTC)
Agreed. I would much rather be happy with my body and capable of eating normally than 100 lbs.
xxxxx
killtherok on May 4th, 2009 04:57 pm (UTC)
easier said than done. mental illnesses are not easy to fight. u cant help what u want. i want to feel happy and eat normally, but when i see 90lbs on the scale i want to rip my hair out and rip the fat off my stomach with my bare hands. i feel good when i see progression towards a lower weight. i understand what ur saying, but eating disorders are a big catch-22
thejadeforestthe_jade_forest on May 21st, 2009 02:30 am (UTC)
I agree
Katiekswin19 on May 5th, 2009 02:00 am (UTC)
oh yeah they think its glamorous... yeah 6 years a bulimia has done wonders for my body lol spend my 16th bday in the ER, teeth are clear hair is 1/3 its origional thickness... what the hck are they thinking...
x_margot_dk_xx_margot_dk_x on May 5th, 2009 05:06 am (UTC)
im pro ana till i die. these girls arent here to make the world anaorexic. they have stopped me frome killing myself more times than you can imagine. it is a support group. i do echo your sentiment when i say this is an illness. i dont really remember what you mean but im an alcoholic i guess. i dont know but these girls are my wor;d but i dont remember what im saying. help ,e. this is the end.
coco_123 on May 5th, 2009 06:32 am (UTC)
104lbs: unhappy
98lbs: unhappy
90lbs: unhappy
85lbs: unhappy
80lbs: unhappy
77lbs: UNHAPPY!

thanks u for your post, you totally hit the nail on the head, the more i lose the more unhappy i feel, i just need the control that my life otherwise lacks! it's not about looking like nicole richie, it's about having something that's yours.
xxx
Veeskeletonlover on May 5th, 2009 02:22 pm (UTC)
You're the new Obama, girl!
thepheonixfliesthepheonixflies on May 6th, 2009 05:27 pm (UTC)
*claps* Well said, my dear. I'm at least 10 to 12 years older than the average age on this site. I give you courage for saying what has needed to said, rather spelled out, for a long time.