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28 April 2009 @ 04:30 pm
hi im kate- nice to meet you  
Hi My name is Katie and I joined the group today. I am always nervous to introduce myself but here we go.

Im a 27 year old Australian girl living in Ireland. Im by no means anorexic- I have a bmi of 25 so Im more close to the overweight side of things... but I am no strabnger to live journal or ED related behaviour. Ive been bulimic (and went to treatment), Ive been a huge laxative abuser, a restricter and an over eater... Ive been fat and I've been slim...

Im not currently binging or purging (well not on a regular basis), and I am trying hard to stray from laxative abuse (but Im struggling). I try to restrict in a bid to avoid the trigger to purge and take lax. But some days are harder than others. I get 'better' but cabn be easily triggered by something as simple as losing a couple of lbs whn I am sick...

I found happiness in the form of an irish man last year while on a one year holiday in Ireland,and since making the move here to live with him, alot of the feelings I have toward myself and food have calmed down....but I have been struggling with these issues since I was 13 and I am now 27 so you can appreciate these feelings are hard to let go of.

Im around for anyone that wants to chat so drop me a line.
Take Care
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tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 03:42 pm (UTC)
Hi :) nice to meet you where are you from? I was reading your post about you and your friend. Some people feel then need to out do others and will make a scene to make the other person look stupid... I have had friends like that in the past. If you ask me they are just doing it because they are insecure themselves.
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tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 04:28 pm (UTC)
yes and no. the weather is a shock.. the people are nice and its exciting to be away from aus... it so far from the rest of the world its nice to get away sometimes :)

is it raining in scotland?
rexiegirl77rexiegirl77 on April 28th, 2009 03:42 pm (UTC)
welcome katie :)
tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 03:44 pm (UTC)
thanks :0 Its always nerve racking to join a group... some can be very narky.... it makes me nervous as I am not thin... Like I said my bmi is 25... but I have had so much history with food and myself its nice to find no judgemental people to talk to who are going through similar situations.
where are you from?
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tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 03:51 pm (UTC)
thanks :) I cant believe how friendly everone is :) I think alot of other sits people are so hungry they get so narky... I mean that in a nice way- I kmow because I have been like that...where are you from?
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tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 03:59 pm (UTC)
texas :) I hope to check out the USA at some stage :)I have an old friend who was from texas originally :)

How long have you been coming here? whats your history?
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tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 04:20 pm (UTC)
I know what you mean about watching sites before joining or posting. there are not of 'new' young ones that run alot of these groups and while each to their own I find that these 'newbies' are so young and so bent on being thin that they forget that that EDs come in many forms and many stages... I have been in many groups with ridiculous rules, girls taht turn on each other out of frustraion and hunger... its savage.

I can never say I was anorexic. or thin for that matter... I just binged and purged.... and took copious amounts of lax.. I lost 25kg in 4 months from restricting and exercising in 2006... but I have never been anorexic... I eat too much :)

I get scared that when I get pregnant I will hurt myt baby because I eat stupid safe foods and hoodia and purge and restrict and things on and off...

How did you cope? Does the body override the ed out of need of the baby? How old is your bub?
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tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 04:44 pm (UTC)
I joined alot of groups in 2006 whenb I was in a stage of restricting and was disgusted by some of the stuff I saw. I have been taking lax since the early 90's so I am too far gone hahhaah :) I have had some horrible occurances with them I can tell you :(

Thats very enouraging to hear about your success with eating and pregnancy and your healthy happy bub :) I do get scared. I am 27 after all.. and I do want kids one day...

what other groups are you in? what do you do for a living?
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Ama Moms - focusontheprize on April 28th, 2009 05:28 pm (UTC) (Expand)
Kirsty (",)crave_concave on April 28th, 2009 03:57 pm (UTC)
Hey Katie, Welcome.
Im Kirsty, 18 from the UK also- Brighton.

tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 04:00 pm (UTC)
Hi Kirsty :)
Im an Aussie but Im living here in Ireland with my man :) hows the weather over there?? Its supposed to be summer soon huh... hmmm Im dubious on taht one :)
whats your history?
Kirsty (",)crave_concave on April 28th, 2009 04:02 pm (UTC)
Haha, Brighton is sunny, but i hate the sun at the moment.
I've been suffering with bulimic/anorexic tendencies since i was 9.
Im now a full blown bulimic.

Wow, id have stayed in australia haha, i hate england.

tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 04:12 pm (UTC)
ah yes Australia is a lovely country but I found a wonderful man right here and Im enjoying every moment of being here.. bar this recession :(

Its raining here.. whats new.. Im so cold I am in bed with the eletric blanket... I feel so lazy :)

thats alot of history :( its hard when you start so young. old habits die hard right? I am pretty much over the purging these days- had a few scares in the past.. I did purge a few times this last month.. I had a bad cough and I coughed so hard I would get sick.. I took advantage of the situation... I am not proud but as you would know igts not that easy...
Kirsty (",)crave_concave on April 28th, 2009 04:16 pm (UTC)
I purge everyday nearly, i have recently been trying to recover, but for the last 19months before i had been doing it 1-3 times a day.
I blame a lot of things in my life that triggered it.
I generally do believe that if i do not kill myself ill die bending over a bucket or toilet bowl..

Im also in bed, im freezing tho, i have my eleci blani on!
tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 04:25 pm (UTC)
hahahah thats funny I am here in bed with the blanket on 3! My lips are actually blue.

I was bulimic in my teens... it started with purging meals... then binging and purging... in my college years I would buy shit loads of food and eat it and purge it... Id eat different colours and use them as a marker so I knew when I had purged the lot...

I dont know what triggered it in the beginnig.. I think It was just puberty and changing... these days i can be triggered by so much.. especially when I have been in recovery like mode... music or sickness and losing a pound.. books... comments everything is a trigger..
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tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 04:30 pm (UTC)
I love it so far :) I met a great guy in 2007 and he is very understanding. I miss Australia sometimes mostly family and friends but I am making a home here in Galway. I walked down the town today and 6 people said hi kate :) so I feel like I am putting down roots. where are you?
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tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 04:34 pm (UTC)
holy shit!!!! thats so weird! what a small world! whats your history with ed?
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tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 04:49 pm (UTC)
Like I said in my intro post I have a BMI of 25... Im a pound from being over weight. If you saw me in the flesh you would know I am no anorexic :) But I have had issues with food for many years.. since I was 13 and I am now 27. I was bulimic in my teens.. and then in my 20's and took lax I had a huge issue with lax and often found myself in a shitty (excuse the pun) situation more than once :)I have been obese.... and then I lost 25kg in 2006 I am currently just 'being' as I have met someone that makes me happy... but i am no where neare better. I get triggered by so much. I am taking hoodia at the momnent and eating my 'safe' foods...
I dont reallyh have a fear of food, I get paniced some time... like last saturday I went to the Roisin and after we got a small chips each... I ate 5 and asked my man if I could walk by the corrib ... and I freaked out and pitched them in the river... I was so pissed at myself for littering but i did it out of panic and without thinking....
Ciaraproofofhumanity on April 28th, 2009 04:45 pm (UTC)
I'm from Dublin, I never see Irish people on here, well not that I know. I'm Ciara, btw, welcome :)
tinykittykattinykittykat on April 28th, 2009 04:50 pm (UTC)
thanks :) nice to meet you. Im an aussie but my many is Irish and I am living here in Galway ATM
whats your history?
unrealjealouslyunrealjealously on February 3rd, 2010 10:54 pm (UTC)
hiii :)
i'm from the north east of the uk :) xxxxxxx
alex_want_need on February 25th, 2010 06:34 am (UTC)
Hi Katie!
I'm and Aussie too :)