I'm in treatment for anorexia. I was admitted to the hospital on November 15th and stayed there for two weeks, sitting in bed and having to eat >1000 calories a day! Now I'm in Day Treatment Unit (against my will) in Portland at Kartini. I go four days a week, ten hours a day with other patients for therapy and such. We have to complete 100% of our meals otherwise we go back to the hospital with a feeding tube in our nose. Yuck. And we are supposed to eat 3000 FUCKIN CALORIES PER DAY!!! What the hell is wrong with these people? I hate having to gain weight! Never, ever, EVER let your parents take you to an eating disorder clinic for a 'checkup'. I went with my parents and ended up in the hospital. Life really is hell for me. I'm not allowed to excerise, see friends, or shop at all!!! I really need support from someone who has gone through the same thing as me, because I really want to end my life. I don't want to live with all this fat on me. Please help!